So yeah, can't sleep,turned 20 today but since it's almost 3am, technically it was yesterday. This was supposed to be a "happy" day but I've been feeling unhappy all day and it turned into the second worse bday ever. Mom was at a funeral of an uncle, dad didn't give a shit and pretty much everyone forgot about it, except for my aunt. I didn't care much, I'd rather being sleeping all day that being awake but even my dreams have been pretty awful lately, awful things happening between people that I know and are close to me, saying horrible things. Sometimes I wonder if they're right, in my head I have fears and thoughts that I'm a failure, that I'm not good enough or that I'll disappoint everyone. Well, that happened already, you should hear my mom " You're almost 20 and ain't worth a shit". I got stressed out and left home without telling a thing, of course I had my ass kicked when I arrived from school. I only feel well while sleeping, when I dream of him, I hear him calling me and I find comfort in his arms. Im so glad to have you,you can always cheer me up, only with a simple look or a smile. I wonder if he's thinking about me now, like I am thinking about him and it doesn't matter what people say, we will be together and I'll beat the crap out of anyone that tries to get in our way.